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Blood In The Sky 🔴`’.°~

a night in my life…

In June of 2o09…
I walked away from the drug life
away from the people
The Culture
The chaos
The darkness


But darkness does not always let go easily


These were the people I once called friends
One of them was like a brother to me
Yet they secretly planned to take my life


They were tied to something dangerous — an organization that did not forgive


I knew too much


They tricked me into going on a road trip to another state


Their plan was to hand me over…

to people who were supposed to kill me

make me disappear forever…

As truth slowly began to reveal itself
fear poured through me…


I thought to myself


This is it…
it’s over…
I’m done…
I’m about to die…


So I began to pray silently…
Believing I was about to meet my maker…


Then something happened — something Holy


A presence stood beside me…

Fear lifted off me…

A deep peace fell over me…

I knew…

I wasn’t alone…

And the men with me felt it too — they knew something greater than them had stepped in…


What I did not know was that they had secretly drugged me


I began to feel sick


The world began to fade away…  everything went black…


The next thing I remember — waking up in a hospital


I stayed there for two weeks


My body… recovering
My heart… waking up…

When I walked out
I was not the same…


Jesus met me — I’ve followed Him ever since…


I couldn’t go home
But that was ok…


I didn’t want to be there anyway…


Later.. I learned what really happened that night…


God spoke to the heart of one of the men…


The same man who helped plan my death… was the one who called for help…


He helped save my life…


He chose mercy… over murder…

I will never forget that moon…


Huge… low…

heavy in the night…

close enough to touch…


Deep red and orange — like blood in the sky…

After that night…


God led me into discipleship and ministry…


He gave me a vision…
a heart for people…


a promise…


that my life…


would rest safely in His hands always…


what was supposed to be an ending…
turned into a beginning…


a chance to turn it all around…

Reach For The Sky… ‘Cause Tomorrow… May Never Come…

So I sit at the edge of my bed…
I strum my guitar… and I sing an outlaw love song…

With a guitar in my hand… I stand a little taller…

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The Green-Eyed Lion of Judah…

the dream that changed it all 🦁

Summer of 1997…

In this season of my life…
I was far away from the God I walked with as a boy and teenager…
but He wasn’t far from me…
He was still right where I had left Him…

I was asleep one night…
I had a dream…
in the middle of addiction…
in the middle of my sin…
this was it…


—


I found myself on a path…
alone…

I looked around…
in awe…
the road was marble…
gold…
silver…
lined with precious jewels…
vibrant…
alive with color…

I thought…
where am I
where is everyone

All at once…
I felt breath upon my neck…

slowly…
I turned around…
before me…
was the most brilliant…
awesome…
magnificent thing…
I have ever laid eyes on…

It was a Lion…

close as could be…

I was face to face with Him…

His eyes were so green…
so piercing…
He saw right through me…

Suddenly…
I became afraid…
what was He about to do
what was about to happen

Beneath the fear…
reverence…

I knew…
He was King of all…

Then…
He began to move…

He lowered His head…
nudged me…
to start walking…

As I moved along the path…
He followed behind me…

Up ahead…

a small white horse…

The Lion went out…
met the horse…
devoured it…
swallowed it whole…

Then He returned behind me once again…
pushing me…
down the path…

At the end…
a wide marble staircase…

He came around from behind me…
moved up the stairs…
sat on the throne…

At His side…
two other Lions…

I fell on my face…

I worshipped Him…

I knew…

He was God…

—

I immediately woke up…

I jumped out of bed…
started writing down the dream…
because I didn’t want to forget it…

But it didn’t matter…

I never have forgotten…

It is as clear to me today…
as when it first happened…

I’m able still…
to close my eyes…
relive it…
just as vivid…
anytime I want…

For years…
I felt the dream was God telling me…
that He was with me…
calling me…
to straighten up…
follow Him…

Then… June of 2o09…

After the second attempt on my life…
God rescued me…
miraculously…
just in time…
brought me safely out of it… to Florida…
to a men’s discipleship and drug rehab ministry…

I had been there for several months…
it was now fall…

One afternoon…
outside… raking leaves…
singing…
praising…
alone…

Suddenly…
I was reminded of my dream…

I looked out across the property…

In the front of the building…
a small pond…
and in the center…
a fountain…
of a Lion…

Then I noticed something else…

The driveway…
L shaped…
like the path in my dream…

At the end of the driveway…
where the throne would be…
two Lion statues…
one on each side…

I was blown away…

Everything made sense now…

I was without words…

And I still am today…
when I think about it all…

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I later became the resident director of that ministry…
spent four years there…

I watched God work strong and mighty…
in the lives of hundreds of broken men…
that came through our doors…
transforming them…
they were never the same…

And in my life…
there is absolutely…
no doubt…
what has happened…
taken place…

who is responsible…
who gets the credit…
the glory…
the honor…
the praise… 🙌

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and…`.°~ ¡-~-¡`°
the small white horse…
my enemies…
my past…

Psalm 143: 9-12…

Deliver me… O LORD… from mine enemies…
I flee unto thee for refuge… to hide me…
Teach me to do thy will… for thou art my God…
thy spirit is good… lead me into the land of uprightness… onto level ground… because of mine enemies…
Quicken me… O LORD… for Jesus Christ name’s sake…
for thy righteousness’ sake… bring my soul out of trouble…
And of thy loving kindness… and mercy… cut off mine enemies…
and destroy all them that afflict my soul..
for I am thy servant… thy friend… thy child…

…..-¡-
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18 Days Awake…

The Edge…

If you didn’t need sleep, what would you do with all the extra time?

When I saw this prompt question…
it brought back many memories of my past…
my drug days…

I went without much in those years…
including sleep…

I was reminded of the time I stayed awake for 18 days…
so I started thinking on it…
and googling…
and reading…

Apparently.. the Guinness World Record for staying awake is 11 days and 25 minutes…
so yeah…
I shattered that record…
but I’m guessing that guy didn’t have any help from stimulants lol…

Through more reading…
I learned that being awake 18 days is hanging right on the edge of death…

Guess I’m really blessed and fortunate…
because there were numerous times I would be awake around 10 days or more even.. I actually beat the world record many times… nothing to be proud of…

I am so grateful and thankful to God…
that I made it through those times…
and I am not the same today…

Death waited at the door…
but it did not win…
I walked back out of those days…
changed…
and still breathing…

I walked the line many times.. the edge…

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👇⚘️❤️‍🔥🏳sendin’ out pk’s..`.-.’😘`.°¡-~-¡•.<~><~>!!’

The peyote scene from “Young Guns”👇😁😎

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I Told Them I Didn’t Have Cancer — And I Was Right

For most of my life.. I’ve been strong and healthy.. Then about a year and a half ago.. my health crashed hard.. This past year has been rough… sickness.. weakness.. doctors searching for answers — but lately I’ve been getting stronger day by day..

Six months ago.. things hit the worst point..

I was deathly sick and went to the ER.. They ran tests.. Two doctors walked in with that look on their faces — the look that says everything before a word is spoken..

“We think it’s cancer.”

They told me there were spots on my pancreas and liver.. and when something shows up on multiple organs.. red flags go up immediately.. doctors assume the worst.. To them.. it looked like cancer that had already spread..

But me?
I was calm..

Not because I’m fearless — but because I had a promise from above that I’d live a long life.. I knew it wasn’t my time.. And I also knew they can’t call anything “cancer” until a biopsy confirms it.. honestly.. even if it were cancer.. I’d still react calmly.. because I’m ready to go home whenever…

I was admitted to the hospital.. and while I waited for results.. everyone — doctors.. nurses.. all treated me like it was cancer.. even my patient chart said it’s cancer.. cancer.. cancer.. cancer… everywhere cancer… One nurse introduced me to another by saying….

“This is Bryan… he has pancreatic cancer.”

I looked up and said..
“No ma’am.. I don’t have cancer.. And the tests results aren’t even back yet…”

Everybody around me braced for the worst..
I held on to faith…
I wasn’t signing my name on something that didn’t belong to me…

Not today.
Not ever.

“Don’t put that evil on me.. Ricky Bobby..” I joked………..
(They tried to curse me — I wasn’t having it 😄…)

And then the results came in..

Everything was benign…
No cancer…
Doctors scratching their heads because they were almost certain…
Me smiling.. because I already knew..

God kept His word to me.
And I’m still here — living.. growing.. healing.. getting stronger every day..

If you’re facing something scary.. remember this..
Doctors have knowledge..
God has the final say……

And He’s not done with me yet.

Also.. if your reading this….. He’s not done with you either…..

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A Hidden Track Of Me…

My first impression

I want my first impression to feel like a hidden track —
a quiet glow in a deep place.. carrying a melody of grace beneath the scars…

I don’t have all the answers… but I know Who does…..`-¡-`°<³
I don’t know what the future holds… but I know Who holds the future…..
I’m nothing special… but I’m special to Him…..

I used to live for myself..
Now I try to put others first — it’s my deep place… the place I like to dwell..
Today.. I carry a love for people I never dreamed possible…..`~  ¡- `<³°
To me.. there’s no such thing as a stranger……

…….<3~|🎶†🎶|~’..`¡-°…….<3~|^†^|~’:`~°•.`

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What book am I reading right now? Well… this one found me more than I found it…

What book are you reading right now?

“The Devils Mistake” by Eira Wulfnothsson and “Celebrate Every Life… Even Mine” by Nan Panman

Not long ago.. I was watching a documentary.. and there was a woman on there who said some things that hit me deep.. I don’t know why.. but her words stuck in my mind.. So I googled her.. Ended up on her website.. Read about her life.. And then I realized why she stood out to me..

She’s an ex-Luciferian occultist who became a Christian…..

That alone fascinated me — but when I found her testimony on YouTube… man.. The depth she was in.. the darkness she lived in.. the way God rescued her… it shook me.. Because I could relate more than I wish I could.. I’ve had my own brushes with that same evil.. I once tried to sell my soul.. I know the pull of that darkness.. I know the cost..

So I reached out…
We ended up emailing..
One thing led to another.. and she invited me into her YouTube community and her podcast.. Pitbulls of the Lord…

She’s smart.. sharp.. grounded.. And because of her past.. she understands the kind of spiritual warfare I’ve been dealing with in a way most people can’t.. She’s been there.. She survived what I almost didn’t…

She’s Roman Catholic, and I’m not — but honestly? I don’t care.. Truth is truth….

Her book is called “The Devil’s Mistake…”
And let me tell you… I couldn’t put it down.. I read the whole thing in a day and a half.. It was powerful.. profound.. it’s on my list of best reads…

Her name is Eira Wulfnothsson..
If any of this sparks something in you — look her up.. You might be surprised by what you find…

Also.. I recently read a friend’s book.. it’s also a Christian testimony story of God’s power and love throughout the life of this woman.. her story is similar to mine and Eira’s…. it’s also tremendously powerful… so check her book out… her name is Nan Panman.. and the book is called “Celebrate Every Life… Even Mine”

I recommend them both…

Both of these books are available on Amazon.. and maybe other places also.. I downloaded both from Kindle…

Below are links for both books…

Yall l have a great day…

I love yall…

https://www.amazon.com/s?k=the+devil%27s+mistake+by+eira+Wulfnothsson&i=stripbooks&crid=2XQ9T2SNQC5W4&sprefix=the+devil%27s+mistake+by+eira+Wulfnothsson+%2Cbooks%2C123&ref=nb_sb_noss

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Who I Am — And What This Blog Is About

I want to take a moment to explain what I’m doing here on this blog…

First and above all… I love Jesus — 110%…
But I also used to be lost.. and I never want to forget that.. My past lets me relate to anyone who shows up here.. Everything I’ve walked through — the struggles.. the mistakes.. the victories.. the faith — it all shaped who I am today…

And I’ve decided I’m not hiding any of it..

This blog is going to show all of me..

who I was…

who I am now…

and who I’m becoming…

I’m going to pour it out and not hold back..

My ministry is BryanForChrist.. and it reaches far beyond one place.. It includes..

my YouTube channel…

my Grow account…

my WhatsApp ministry…

my mission work in the Philippines..  Singapore.. Argentina.. and now Uganda..

and my ongoing connections with churches and ministries across Florida..

And now here also…

There’s a lot happening — but it all comes down to one mission…
reaching people who need hope… listening to them… talking to them… loving them… all of them…

I’m going to do that by being myself…
My secular side.. my life side.. my faith side.. my Christian heart — it all lives here together…..

So this blog is different.. than my other things going on.. I feel this is my angle of approach.. unique to here…

And trust me…

it’s going to work… I hope 😄… nah just kidding… it will be fine… 😁… regardless though… It will be me… 😎…..,t`¡-<³… ☝️

So pull up a chair…

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