Fireworks and Faith…

God on the Shoulder of the Highway…

It was New Year’s Eve… 1997 into ’98…
I had survived…
The year — I mean… I wasn’t sure I would…

The heart I have today…
was still shaping back then…
burning… crushing…
maybe it was the fireworks outside —
or maybe just my own…

There was a party that night…
at my friends’ house — Sam and Becky…

their place was always full of people…
I spent so many weekends there that year…
it was like my second home…

crazy nights… good nights…
we were all so close…

often I’d bring my guitar…
and we’d sit around until morning…
singing songs… drinking…
and sometimes… yeah… drugs…

I was on an intense champagne high…
I’d had way too much…
I normally didn’t get like that…
I could usually hold my own…
but not that night…

my plan was to crash there…
just pass out on a couch like always…

but around 3 am…
I had some words with a friend of mine…
she pissed me off…

so.. stubborn… and spinning…
I grabbed my keys…
made my way to my car…
and decided to attempt the 45-minute drive
back to my apartment…

I honestly don’t remember much
about the first half of the drive…

I somehow managed to make it
onto Interstate 75 North…
and then everything just
kind of went black…

I remember hearing…
and feeling…
this repetitive vibrating —
a low rumbling sound…

I thought I was dreaming…
the sound just kept going…

finally… I opened my eyes…

the strangest moment…
still hard to describe properly with words…

I had passed out while driving…
slipped over
into the passenger seat
of my Camaro…

and my car
was still doing about 60 mph…
riding the shoulder of Interstate 75…
inches from the guardrail…

the sound I was hearing —
the rumble strip…
screaming at me that I was in danger…

I sat up immediately…
grabbed the wheel…
pulled myself back into the travel lanes…
just in the nick of time…

there was an abandoned vehicle
directly in front of me…
I missed it by only a few feet…

I was completely sober now…

I kept driving home…

I just couldn’t believe it…
I could have killed someone…
and almost killed myself…

then…
I had this powerful spiritual moment…

I felt a Presence…
a Holy Voice inside…

I don’t know how long I was asleep…
but I know…

someone had the steering wheel…

I was sure of it…

I talked with Him
the rest of the way home…

and somewhere
on that dark stretch of road…

I made my resolutions
for 1998…

`’.,°~

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First Love…💥…`

When I was 19… I met a girl.. (the girl).. she was 16… I exploded inside when i saw her for the first time…💥🏳… I surrendered… I let my white flags fly… she became my girlfriend… we were inseparable… deep in love… or so we thought… her family loved me… my family loved her… I worked hard… I saved all my money… I bought her a small diamond ring… before I ever asked her to marry me… i knew her eyes said yes always…💥

We lived like we were married… that wasn’t good… it wasn’t christian… it wasn’t Godly… she meant more than anything else to me… that wasn’t good either…💥

My 21st birthday was approaching… I was excited… she was nervous… I started going out nights with my friends… to bars and clubs… I was drinking… I was partying…💥 she was lonely… late one night.. I ended up drunk on my friends couch… a girl I knew before her was there… she sat down beside me… time passed… highly intoxicated….. I had sex with this other girl…💥

When I woke up that morning… sober… I couldn’t believe what I had done… I loved my life so… how could I ever cheat on her… I felt like garbage… dirty… so–fake… I 💥 walked to the bathroom… threw some water on my face… I couldn’t look in the mirror…

I decided to tell her the truth… I had to let go of this… to be free… to be honest… to be me again… oh how.. I wanted her to forgive me… I just knew that our love was💥 strong enough to bend… that we could survive this… before I could tell her… she told me that she had a dream… that same night… that I cheated on her… WHOA-OH… unbelievable… I was in the process of being unfaithful… while she was asleep and dreaming of it…💥

So.. I sat her down… trembling.. I told her… it broke her in half… she told me to leave… long story short… she was done… she never had anything to do with me ever again…💥

Now I was broke… behond repair… it took me years to get right… I’ve endured much pain and hurt on my narrow road of life… but nothing ever as painful as losing her…

About 6 months ago… I found her Facebook… I gathered myself… found strength to look through her pictures… I saw her… her husband… her two glowing  teenagers… boy and girl… her life…💥 without me… looked so beautiful…💛

‘pictures in a box at home– yellowing and green with mold– so I can barely see your face–(I) wonder how that color taste–…🎵 –‘……..    ……….~</3~’…A…—|—’…N….-/-/-‘..G…..↓°↓°↓’…E….^|^’……L….¡!’….A…:;:;’…….</3,,,’—|—†’“““`=angela


“”and for the million hours that we were
well I’ll smile and remember it all
then I’ll turn and go🎵
while your story’s completed mine is a long way from done…””

…….<3~:;∞’…“`-\|□♡◇¿¡!<+~`》¤○•°`,: ;*

Part of a poem… by Thomas Ford

There is a lady sweet and kind…
Was never face so pleased my mind…
I did but see her passing by…
And yet I love her till I die……

I’m totally over this today… just thought I’d write about it… 😁`’.¡~.

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