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I Am Back 🙌

So I’ve been sick for two years…
it’s been horrible…
I’ve been gradually getting better over these last months…

A few weeks ago…
I made huge progress…
felt like I got healed…

And today…
I feel it in every way…

I’m gaining weight again…
I’ve been working out daily for almost two weeks now…
and in a short time… I’m putting on muscle…
I’m looking better than ever…
I’m feeling strong…
I feel like myself again…

And I can’t praise God enough…
Oh thank You… Holy Father…

I’ve had people all over the world praying for me…
pulling for me… and my girlfriend’s faithful prayers…
Oh how grateful I am…
thankful…
humbled by the entire experience…
Oh how happy I am…
that it’s over…

because there were moments I truly wasn’t sure I’d ever get back here…

Honestly.. my faith wavered over these past few years… I was so sick…
I lost nearly 60 pounds…
I was told it was cancer…
then told it wasn’t…
and to this day… I still don’t know what it was…

I just know it was hard…
a daily struggle to not give up…

But now…

Because of my God —
I am back…

Not just back…
but renewed…
Stronger…
Better…
Alive in a way I hadn’t felt in years…

And today…
I stand here in gratitude —
the fear is gone…

All glory to God —
the healer…
the restorer…
the One who carried me when I couldn’t carry myself…

Amen and Amen.

Forever and ever…

“Though He slay me.. yet will I trust in Him…” — Job 13:15 (NKJV)

“The Lord restored the health of Job…”
— Job 42:10

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Where She Waits

my dream from last night

I was asleep…
— until I opened my eyes…
— I was in an old town… a third world place…

Cobblestone streets…
— run down…
— falling apart…

There were people everywhere—
on the outside.. they seemed okay…
but once they opened their mouths…
— I saw they were falling apart too…

Nothing but rusted words…
— no faith…
— no hope…
— nothing good to say…
They believed in nothing…

Just empty speech… empty phrases…
— nothing on the inside…
Painted smiles that no one cares to look through…
So I shook it off me—
— continued on…

In the distance.. I could see huge pyramid-like structures…
They were white marble—
— steep…
— with hewn steps stretching across…
Carved for someone braver…
— layered one upon another…
— like a man-made mountain range…

Magnificent to look at…
— like the teeth of God…
— so high up…
— bruising the sky…
— such a challenge…

Something inside me cried out…
Something feral and buried…
I knew—
I must climb…

I started walking toward them…
— because I’m about to move up… 😉

The people started yelling at me—
Their voices like a flock of crows…
— black…
— circling…

You’re not good enough…
you cant…
you wont make it…
it’s impossible…
it’s too much…
you’re crazy…
you’re going to regret it…
you will die…
Yada… yada… yada…

Wrong words—
— like an avalanche…
— thundering down from the mountains…
Bursting into sparks as they hit me—
straight firing me up… setting my spirit ablaze…

My eyes locked…
I started to run — harder…
— faster…
— gaining momentum…
— like jets on a runway…

I took off…
— climbing higher…
— and higher…

The incline at times seemed straight up…
— I could actually feel myself getting tired…

But I kept on—
— never thought of giving up…
— never worried…
— never stopping…
— never slowing to catch my breath…

I’ve never had a better feeling in my life…
— awake or asleep…
— I felt so alive…
— so happy…
— it was unreal…

So determined —
— no one and nothing could stop me…
— nothing was impossible…

It was the greatest feeling ever…
I carried it with me all day after waking…

Mountains mean nothing…

And soon I will rest…
— on the summit…
— where she waits…
Take her hand…
— be her man…

I climb for that moment…
— a deep kiss…
— a life…
— that quiets the world below

Little by little… day by day…

Habakkuk 3:19

“The Lord God is my strength…
and He will make my feet like deer’s feet… and He will make me walk upon my high places…”

© 2026 Bryan H. All Rights Reserved.

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Midnight…

My New Year’s Eve Story…

On the last night of the year…
hope felt easy…
it hummed in my chest…
like a song I thought I finally knew by heart…

I was already living…
in the glow of tomorrow…

Then—
in a breath
the air shifted…

with hard words…
a sudden silence inside…

that old familiar pit
opened in my stomach…
eating up the light
I had just begun to trust…

I laid there in the dark…
for awhile…
just numb…

trying not to embrace it…
yet longing to be embraced…

exhausted…
overwhelmed…

I drifted off…
on cold sheets of glass…

praying not to dream…
just to sleep…
just to forget…
if only for a little while…

At midnight—
I woke…

to colored bombs
bursting in air…

then… despair…

wonderful colors…
of months passed…
seemed no more…

cosmic lonely hit…
it wasn’t a dream…

I just laid there…
thinking…

with my 100-pound heart…

with silent flow…
I wet my pillow…

a quiet deep fountain…
rushing in the night…

eyes I haven’t known…
in awhile…

Eventually—
I fell back asleep…

only to wake again…
at 1:43…

and 3:33…

just to repeat
the things written above…

When I woke the last time—
through the blinds…
lines of sunshine…

warmed me…

like kisses…
all over my face…

Thank You God…

I know it will be ok…

I know it’s going to be a good year 😎`’.,°~

…….⛈️→💃🌧️→🙂<3→😞📅→😊📅→🚫😨→👀→☀️→🌈’…….~⛈~→\o/→<3→↓°→↑°→?→!→|→^°→~^~’

Psalm 102:6–7 ✨️🦉🏜🐦🏠

“I am like a desert owl of the wilderness…
like an owl of the waste places…
I lie awake…
I have become like a lonely bird on a housetop…”

© 2026 Bryan H — All Rights Reserved.

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Held Together…

Lauren Daigle.. Jon from Switchfoot.. I Won’t Let You Go.. 🎼 💙🫂 t…

I’ve lived enough life…
made enough mistakes…
carried enough weight…

to know one thing for sure…

I never held myself together…

I know this for fact…

because I know the One…
who holds me…

together…

He is before all things…
and in Him… all things… hold together…
— Colossians 1:17

¼³💔🔥→🩹💧🩸→😣🧎→🤲🕊️🤝✝→🌅❤️'<3~🔥→/↓→_~…~†→=|=→^°’ `’.,°~

Stay til the end… for the harmonies… 3:42… ☝️

© 2025–2026 Bryan H All Rights Reserved

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Beavis & Butthead…

a story from my life…

Back in 2o09… my life was fun fun… you know… dodging bullets… concrete shoes… watery graves… Judas kisses… the usual crap
Eventually… I took a break from all the excitement
And checked myself into an 18 month drug rehab in Florida
They say rehab is for quitters… yep… they’d be right…

A few weeks in… something real started happening inside me
Things slowed down
Life was simple
Clear
Peaceful
For the first time in a long time… I was happy
My mind was sharp
God was working in me something fierce
Speaking loud
Speaking clear
I knew… I was exactly where I needed to be…

We were on this beautiful ten acre spread
And I lived in a house with about ten other guys
All of them tired
All of them broken
All of them ready for change
They became my brothers
And— they still are…

One of my responsibilities there… was to care for the ministry dog
His name was Beavis
Cool name— cooler dog
He was older… a boxer mix… gorgeous… and so smart
He didn’t really have anywhere to go either
His owner Stuart had died of cancer about a year before I arrived… and Beavis never recovered from it…

He was grieving
Deeply
They told me how he cried… and searched… and waited for Stuart…
And it broke my heart
A dog that was once full of life… joy… energy… spark…
Was now quiet… distant… hurting…
He would not let anyone in…

But there was one thing he still loved…
There was this random green 10 pound bowling ball on the property
You could sling that thing across the grounds
And Beavis would bark… chase it down… and roll it across the field with his head…
Like it was the most important mission on earth
I had never seen a dog play with a bowling ball before 😁
He absolutely loved it
So I made it my daily mission… to roll life back into him…

People told me Beavis would never bond with anyone again
That he belonged to Stuart
That his heart was finished choosing humans…

Challenge accepted—

I took care of him
Vet visits
Meds
Food
Time
Love
Patience
And after about a year and a half… it happened…
Beavis chose me—
He followed me everywhere
He slept beside my bed
He watched me
Protected me
Laughed with me… in his dog way…
He came back to life…

But loving… comes with cost—

Because he slept outside before I came…
He had gotten heartworms from mosquitoes
Over the four years I lived there… after graduating… and becoming resident director…
Beavis slowly grew sicker…
I gave him antibiotics daily
I loved him harder as he grew weaker
And.. Just like he stayed with Stuart— I stayed with him… til the end…

He had a soft bed right beside mine
He had warmth
Comfort
Care
Family
Honor…
He was treated like royalty—

All us guys loved him so…

And when the time came… I could not watch him suffer anymore…
I made the call…
Was so hard for me…
So hard…

Beavis was one of the greats
Not just a dog…
A gift—

He was meant for me
I was meant for him

destined for each other…

I will always remember him…

The mighty— loyal— stubborn— beautiful heart of Beavis…

He was my Dawg… 😎`’.,°~

…

Though oceans roar… You are the Lord of all… The one who calms the wind and waves and makes my heart be still…
Though the Earth gives way… the mountains move into the sea…
The nations rage… I know my God is in control…

© 2025–2026 bryanforchrist. All rights reserved.

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Hidden Gems From The B-Side.. Faith Side (Week 6)

Big Daddy Weave 🎶 I Know 🎶 We Want The World To Hear…

Today I want to spotlight one of my favorite faith side artists… Big Daddy Weave… They formed in 1998 after meeting at the University of Mobile in Alabama… They have been pouring out honest heartfelt worship ever since… Their lead singer is Mike Weaver… and this one is personal for me… because I once served in music ministry with two of his family members… so this band has always felt close to home for me…

I have two powerful songs for you today…

“I Know” released in 2o19 on the album.. When The Light Comes… This one means a lot to me… I had just found out about Charlie Kirk… I was sitting in silence… grieving… then this song began to play… it became a moment I will never forget…

“We Want The World To Hear” from 2o08 on the album.. What Life Would Be Like… An amazing album… probably my favorite from them…

I hope you enjoy these today… 🙏

..¹⁴³…..♪~♪..[..]..◎~◎”

On my darkest day…
From my deepest pain…
Through it all… my heart… will choose… to sing… Your praise… `.°-‘.^ …t`

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Blood In The Sky 🔴`’.°~

a night in my life…

In June of 2o09…
I walked away from the drug life
away from the people
The Culture
The chaos
The darkness


But darkness does not always let go easily


These were the people I once called friends
One of them was like a brother to me
Yet they secretly planned to take my life


They were tied to something dangerous — an organization that did not forgive


I knew too much


They tricked me into going on a road trip to another state


Their plan was to hand me over…

to people who were supposed to kill me

make me disappear forever…

As truth slowly began to reveal itself
fear poured through me…


I thought to myself


This is it…
it’s over…
I’m done…
I’m about to die…


So I began to pray silently…
Believing I was about to meet my maker…


Then something happened — something Holy


A presence stood beside me…

Fear lifted off me…

A deep peace fell over me…

I knew…

I wasn’t alone…

And the men with me felt it too — they knew something greater than them had stepped in…


What I did not know was that they had secretly drugged me


I began to feel sick


The world began to fade away…  everything went black…


The next thing I remember — waking up in a hospital


I stayed there for two weeks


My body… recovering
My heart… waking up…

When I walked out
I was not the same…


Jesus met me — I’ve followed Him ever since…


I couldn’t go home
But that was ok…


I didn’t want to be there anyway…


Later.. I learned what really happened that night…


God spoke to the heart of one of the men…


The same man who helped plan my death… was the one who called for help…


He helped save my life…


He chose mercy… over murder…

I will never forget that moon…


Huge… low…

heavy in the night…

close enough to touch…


Deep red and orange — like blood in the sky…

After that night…


God led me into discipleship and ministry…


He gave me a vision…
a heart for people…


a promise…


that my life…


would rest safely in His hands always…


what was supposed to be an ending…
turned into a beginning…


a chance to turn it all around…

© Bryan H. 2025 — All Rights Reserved

Reach For The Sky… ‘Cause Tomorrow… May Never Come…

So I sit at the edge of my bed…
I strum my guitar… and I sing an outlaw love song…

With a guitar in my hand… I stand a little taller…

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Hidden Gems From The B-Side — Life Side (Week 3)

Better Way 🎶 Sister Hazel

Thought I would do one more from Sister Hazel… and then next week I’ll be moving on to someone else…
This last song is called “Better Way”… and it’s maybe my favorite from them — it just really speaks to me… lyrically and musically…
It’s definitely a hidden gem… not as known as some of their other songs…
It debuted in August of 2o09 on the album “Release”…
I’ve also included a few more videos of them below…
I hope you enjoy…

Front porch pickin’ 👇 just hangin’ out

cool song video of the band and family 👇

👇🔥💯

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”’ the bright skies.. they only fool the men who are blind
So.. look through the smile and see what’s behind..”‘ 🎶

”’ Now.. here I sit.. in a cage all my own
It’s a new life.. it’s a brand new home
And it’s made out of steel.. it’s built out of fear
It’s closed up to you and it’s part of the deal…”’ 🎶