For most of my life.. I’ve been strong and healthy.. Then about a year and a half ago.. my health crashed hard.. This past year has been rough… sickness.. weakness.. doctors searching for answers — but lately I’ve been getting stronger day by day..
Six months ago.. things hit the worst point..
I was deathly sick and went to the ER.. They ran tests.. Two doctors walked in with that look on their faces — the look that says everything before a word is spoken..
“We think it’s cancer.”
They told me there were spots on my pancreas… liver… kidneys… and when something shows up on multiple organs.. red flags go up immediately.. doctors assume the worst.. To them.. it looked like cancer that had already spread..
But me? I was calm..
Not because I’m fearless — but because I had a promise from above that I’d live a long life.. I knew it wasn’t my time.. And I also knew they can’t call anything “cancer” until a biopsy confirms it.. honestly.. even if it were cancer.. I’d still react calmly.. because I’m ready to go home whenever…
I was admitted to the hospital.. and while I waited for results.. everyone — doctors.. nurses.. all treated me like it was cancer.. even my patient chart said it’s cancer.. cancer.. cancer.. cancer… everywhere cancer… One nurse introduced me to another by saying….
“This is Bryan… he has pancreatic cancer.”
I looked up and said.. “No ma’am.. I don’t have cancer.. And the tests results aren’t even back yet…”
Everybody around me braced for the worst.. I held on to faith… I wasn’t signing my name on something that didn’t belong to me…
Not today. Not ever.
“Don’t put that evil on me.. Ricky Bobby..” I joked……….. (They tried to curse me — I wasn’t having it 😄…)
And then the results came in..
Everything was benign… No cancer… Doctors scratching their heads because they were almost certain… Me smiling.. because I already knew..
God kept His word to me. And I’m still here — living.. growing.. healing.. getting stronger every day..
If you’re facing something scary.. remember this.. Doctors have knowledge.. God has the final say……
And He’s not done with me yet.
Also… if you’re reading this….. He’s not done with you either…..
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I want my first impression to feel like a hidden track — a quiet glow in a deep place.. carrying a melody of grace beneath the scars…
I don’t have all the answers… but I know Who does…..`-¡-`°<³ I don’t know what the future holds… but I know Who holds the future….. I’m nothing special… but I’m special to Him…..
I used to live for myself.. Now I try to put others first — it’s my deep place… the place I like to dwell.. Today.. I carry a love for people I never dreamed possible…..`~ ¡- `<³° To me.. there’s no such thing as a stranger……
“The Devils Mistake” by Eira Wulfnothsson and “Celebrate Every Life… Even Mine” by Nan Panman
Not long ago.. I was watching a documentary.. and there was a woman on there who said some things that hit me deep.. I don’t know why.. but her words stuck in my mind.. So I googled her.. Ended up on her website.. Read about her life.. And then I realized why she stood out to me..
She’s an ex-Luciferian occultist who became a Christian…..
That alone fascinated me — but when I found her testimony on YouTube… man.. The depth she was in.. the darkness she lived in.. the way God rescued her… it shook me.. Because I could relate more than I wish I could.. I’ve had my own brushes with that same evil.. I once tried to sell my soul.. I know the pull of that darkness.. I know the cost..
So I reached out… We ended up emailing.. One thing led to another.. and she invited me into her YouTube community and her podcast.. Pitbulls of the Lord…
She’s smart.. sharp.. grounded.. And because of her past.. she understands the kind of spiritual warfare I’ve been dealing with in a way most people can’t.. She’s been there.. She survived what I almost didn’t…
She’s Roman Catholic, and I’m not — but honestly? I don’t care.. Truth is truth….
Her book is called “The Devil’s Mistake…” And let me tell you… I couldn’t put it down.. I read the whole thing in a day and a half.. It was powerful.. profound.. it’s on my list of best reads…
Her name is Eira Wulfnothsson.. If any of this sparks something in you — look her up.. You might be surprised by what you find…
Also.. I recently read a friend’s book.. it’s also a Christian testimony story of God’s power and love throughout the life of this woman.. her story is similar to mine and Eira’s…. it’s also tremendously powerful… so check her book out… her name is Nan Panman.. and the book is called “Celebrate Every Life… Even Mine”
I recommend them both…
Both of these books are available on Amazon.. and maybe other places also.. I downloaded both from Kindle…
Years ago… a Christian friend of mine.. shared his thoughts with me.. regarding the song “Man In The Box” by Alice in Chains..💥he explained to me how the song was demonic and evil.. because of the line.. “Jesus Christ..deny your maker”… and I’ve had others in my life try and say the same thing… but the song is not that at all… it’s the deep cry and lament of a man… lost in life… lost in addiction.. a man who feels hopeless… a man that knows he’s in💥trouble and dying… a man fighting the demons… a man crying out…… for Jesus…. ((is the song influenced by evil? For sure.. but there’s a lot of good happening here also.. God is trying to reach Layne.. I’m focused on the man crying… I care about him… not the demons))…..💥
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Layne believed… he knew God was real.. he knew God was his only hope… he was💥longing for HIM… he just felt so far away… he didn’t know how to get there… he was blinded by his life… this is what drug💥addiction does… I know… I’ve been there…
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Layne’s story is so sad to me… because I was just like him… but there’s hope for us all💥today…. you dont have to feel like Layne and me….☝️….. there is one💥standing at the door of your heart… knocking…💥
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People are more important… than anything else… even the ones you don’t know… even the ones you don’t like…☝️💯
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“” see the forest through the trees… that goes for us Christians also… and by ‘us I mean me’…””💥
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“” send me to them.. I will help them find YOU…””💯
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Layne was beautiful… I pulled for him… I prayed for him… makes me sad… that he ended like he did… he died alone… in his apartment… of an overdose… don’t you end like this… get up stand up… wake up… answer the door… ☝️💥💯🏳🪜✝️
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“” people don’t care how much you know… until they know how much you care…””🖤
(Willy) “We are two lions litter’d in one day… and I the elder and more terrible…”
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(Me) “that’s great bro.. but your pride and fearlessness is a perfect window into your tragic blindness… you need THE KING.. you need JESUS… you need THE LION OF JUDAH…..!”
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(Stevie Ray Vaughan) “Hey guys… can we just listen to music today…..?`…,.’-_`°…..”
It was Tuesday.. June 6.. 2o06.. around 9 pm.. eastern time.. in the small town of Locust Grove.. Georgia.. USA.. at the end of a quiet cul-de-sac.. a good neighborhood to grow up.. in a beautiful.. yellow..💥 southern home.. out of a magazine.. with white shudders and trim.. and an old style front porch.. that almost ran the length of the house.. lined with antique wooden💥 rocking chairs.. full with gorgeous flowers and potted plants of various kinds and colors.. my mother’s precious castle… her Kindom.. where she reigned… and I just happened to be there… sitting.. rocking.. playing my guitar and singing.. trying to write my song…..💥
I had been struggling with addiction.. somehow.. I decided in my mind.. that the drugs made me more creative.. I felt it made me a better musician.. a better💥 singer… I thought i could write better… I swallowed the lie wholly… one thing was for sure.. I enjoyed myself and my music much more while under the influence… this was the reason I used drugs… it💥 wasn’t to sit around and get high and act💥stupid and practice meaningless💥nonsense of no importance… I would make magic.. I was creating the world inside my head… singing and strumming the strings of my life.. the only way I knew how at the time…💥
I was high that night.. like the sky.. I was sitting at my computer.. I had been💥 performing live all day in an online music festival concert… I was a part of a group of💥worldwide musicians known as “The Pond”… and we were putting on a show that day… so i’d perform a song about every two hours… and in between that.. other acts would play…..💥
As I was waiting my turn… something came over me… a thought… a desire to be famous… a desire to be heard.. to be known.. to be felt the world over…💥to be loved by many… to be a rockstar… and then it happened… I began to speak to him… to the evil one.. the devil.. satan.. Lucifer.. whatever you want to call him.. he has many names… I told him that if he were to make me famous… and take me and my music to the top… take me to the highest level… that I would💥serve him… what happened next.. I wasn’t expecting and has been hard to forget……….💥
As I ended my words with him… something happened… I had his attention.. I felt his presence close.. I felt him💥listening.. I felt him speaking.. as if he was saying…. “”ok… it’s all yours.. what you ask.. what you seek.. what you desire… it’s all yours””… I finished the concert that night and went to bed.. exhausted and uneasy…..💥
Morning came… I awoke.. and immediately.. I remembered… oh no.. what have I done?.. I was sober now… I jumped out of bed… I was scared… I was a mess emotionally… I made coffee… I tried to think of my next move… I went to the garage… and I spoke these words out loud… I told him to forget💥 everything I asked for… that I didn’t mean it… that I didn’t want it… that I could never commit to him… because I belong to💥CHRIST JESUS💥… that I would be following HIM and HIM only moving forward… HIM only will I serve… I💥recanted… I took it all back… I felt💥relieved… alive… delivered… forgiven… restored… renewed… what happened next has given me a few bad dreams over the years…..💥
As I finished telling the devil.. my new future plan… an evil presence rushed at me from across the room… it was angry and fast… I could hear the wind and💥motion as it approached me… it got right up close in my face… nose to nose… staring me down… it was the most💥intense… most intimidating… purest form of evil… it didn’t feel like a demon… it felt like the source… the one behind it all… the one that fell… the accuser of the brethren… the father of lies… the devil himself…💥 Lucifer… and he was in my garage… in my face… trying to start a fight…💥 or finish one…💥… that I started……💥
I was frozen in place… nose to nose… face to face… I had to do something… I started talking to GOD..silently… calling on HIM… HE showed up… I filled up on strength… I started rebuking the evil… commanding it with authority… it remained in front of me… something had to give… I couldn’t stand any longer in the presence of it… I ran in the house… and it was over… but it wasn’t over……💥
So since this experience… throughout the years… evil has tried many times to take my life… evil has made several attempts.. .. but GOD… rich in love and mercy… has kept me safe… HE has miraculously💥delivered me on occasions… when I call on HIM… HE comes after me… riding the wind… HE has been with me through it all… my strength–my source… it’s because of my GOD…💥that I write to you this night… and tell you of HIS goodness… and I only say this to you… HE loves you as much as HE loves me… and HE’S there… HE’S real… nose to nose… face to face… waiting for you…💥
Many people don’t believe….. I can’t help but to….. because of what I’ve been💥 through… I know the truth with certainty… I know we all only have two choices… and limited time to choose…..💥
‘O THANK YOU JESUS 💥💯
I leave you with these scriptures.. look them up.. it is my life verse given to me by the LORD…💥
Psalm 143: 9-12…. (143 is the numeric code for the phrase “I love you” 9-12 is my💥birthday… and the words inside… my life…… my story…….my GOD……💥`-!1~`-4/3_<9*,;:12’^”>t’…,,”…,’…,t’/_`-!’,-^-💥
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“….I awoke last night to the sound of thunder… how far off… I sat💥and wondered… started humming a song from 1962… aint it funny how the night moves… when you just don’t seem to have as much to lose… strange how the night moves…💥with Autumn closing in….”…..,t’ `~-.i’!^_/
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I’ll never forget the summer of 2o06…
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“…oh the night has been won… and I shall overcome… yet not i.. but through CHRIST In me…”💥…………………………………………`☆
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if your unfamiliar with the girl singing in the video?… that’s Jen Ledger… the drummer from the band SKILLET… I’m in love with her 😍😅.. she’s my honey…😁..💥
I just posted another short video of her playing drums… hard to believe that’s the same.. innocent.. precious.. sweet little thing singing in the other vid 😅… she’s a beast on those drums!………..💥
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“” you can take my heart… you can take my breath… when you pry it… from my cold dead chest…”” ☝️💯
Who is the most famous or infamous person you have ever met?
So I know some famous people.. let’s start with Sterling Winfield… him and i hung out some back in 2006-08… we don’t talk today… I could tell you many cool stories about my time with Sterling… here’s one… he once called on the phone from inside a limousine with Kid Rock and Pam Anderson…💥
Also.. I am friends with Pastor Bill Bailey… he is the top southern gospel music promoter in the nation… from 2009-13.. I met and hung out with so many Christian music artists and groups through him… here’s a few… Jason Crabb.. Adam Crabb.. The Issacs… many others associated with Bill Gaither….💥
Also… I’ve hung out with Victor Wooten and Steve Bailey… Victor is one of the best bass guitar players in the world… he hangs out with Dave Matthews…💥
Also… from my in-depth study of my family tree.. I found out that I’m related to.. President Richard Nixon… William Penn.. for which Pennsylvania is named… his grandson John Penn… signer of the declaration of independence… also.. my ancestors were directly involved in the Salem Witch Trials…💥
But the most famous person I know…….. my LORD… my SAVIOR… my KING… my GOD… my FRIEND… that sticks closer than a brother… my ALL-IN-ALL… JESUS CHRIST… do you know HIM?…💥
Yall should have known that was coming… 😆😁😛…💥
Also… the most infamous one I know is Lucifer… we had a falling out in 2006.. I haven’t spoken to him since…💥
So what does all this mean? Absolutely nothing…..🏳
Only one of these matters to me…💥 everything else under my sun is simply vanity…💥
Heart of Loia `'.,°~ 