love hurts – Heart of Loia `'.,°~

When I was 19… I met a girl.. (the girl).. she was 16… I exploded inside when i saw her for the first time…💥🏳… I surrendered… I let my white flags fly… she became my girlfriend… we were inseparable… deep in love… or so we thought… her family loved me… my family loved her… I worked hard… I saved all my money… I bought her a small diamond ring… before I ever asked her to marry me… i knew her eyes said yes always…💥

We lived like we were married… that wasn’t good… it wasn’t christian… it wasn’t Godly… she meant more than anything else to me… that wasn’t good either…💥

My 21st birthday was approaching… I was excited… she was nervous… I started going out nights with my friends… to bars and clubs… I was drinking… I was partying…💥 she was lonely… late one night.. I ended up drunk on my friends couch… a girl I knew before her was there… she sat down beside me… time passed… highly intoxicated….. I had sex with this other girl…💥

When I woke up that morning… sober… I couldn’t believe what I had done… I loved my life so… how could I ever cheat on her… I felt like garbage… dirty… so–fake… I 💥 walked to the bathroom… threw some water on my face… I couldn’t look in the mirror…

I decided to tell her the truth… I had to let go of this… to be free… to be honest… to be me again… oh how.. I wanted her to forgive me… I just knew that our love was💥 strong enough to bend… that we could survive this… before I could tell her… she told me that she had a dream… that same night… that I cheated on her… WHOA-OH… unbelievable… I was in the process of being unfaithful… while she was asleep and dreaming of it…💥

So.. I sat her down… trembling.. I told her… it broke her in half… she told me to leave… long story short… she was done… she never had anything to do with me ever again…💥

Now I was broke… behond repair… it took me years to get right… I’ve endured much pain and hurt on my narrow road of life… but nothing ever as painful as losing her…

About 6 months ago… I found her Facebook… I gathered myself… found strength to look through her pictures… I saw her… her husband… her two glowing teenagers… boy and girl… her life…💥 without me… looked so beautiful…💛

‘pictures in a box at home– yellowing and green with mold– so I can barely see your face–(I) wonder how that color taste–…🎵 –‘…….. ……….~</3~’…A…—|—’…N….-/-/-‘..G…..↓°↓°↓’…E….^|^’……L….¡!’….A…:;:;’…….</3,,,’—|—†’“““`=angela

“”and for the million hours that we were
well I’ll smile and remember it all
then I’ll turn and go🎵
while your story’s completed mine is a long way from done…””

…….<3~:;∞’…“`-\|□♡◇¿¡!<+~`》¤○•°`,: ;*

Part of a poem… by Thomas Ford

There is a lady sweet and kind…
Was never face so pleased my mind…
I did but see her passing by…
And yet I love her till I die……

I’m totally over this today… just thought I’d write about it… 😁`’.¡~.

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