Author: loia

Loia writes a life, not a lane — Christian, writer, musician & singer. Life stories and dreams — shaped by music, faith, memory, poetry, and silence. `'.,°~ https://loia.blog/about/
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Fourteen

Long Cold Winter…

When I was fourteen.. my best friend was killed in a dirt-bike accident..
I can’t begin to tell you what it did to me…
Crushed is the only word I have right now..
and even that feels too small..

We were closer than brothers..

After the funeral.. I fell into my bedroom.
That room became my world —
my home inside my home..
I shut down..
Closed myself off..
No access allowed..

Everyone was worried about me..

It felt like I was on a camping trip in the wilderness
alone..
And I stayed there for a whole year..

I needed something…
but I didn’t know what..

I started borrowing CDs and cassette tapes from my uncle..

I found an old tape in a forgotten box in the attic —
Bob Dylan’s Another Side of Bob Dylan…
and I disappeared into it.

rock…
country… blues…
folk…
old…
new…

Hank Williams Jr…
And the only Christian song I even knew back then..
Amazing Grace..

I didn’t just listen —
I drank it..
And the more I drank..
the thirstier I got..
So I went swimming in it..
Something I still do..

Meanwhile.. God was walking the edges of me…

One night.. I awoke from a dream that wouldn’t let go…
and there in the corner of my room
was a silhouette.. shaped like a guitar..

my mother was so worried about me
she didn’t know what else to do..
So she bought me an acoustic guitar..
And one night.. while I was sleeping…
she placed it right where I would see it.. the moment I opened my eyes..

and so I took it

I played it…
and I played it…
and I played it…

until my fingers bled

until it started playing me..

I learned it —
taught myself —
until it learned me back..

Song after song..
Day after day.. night after night…
Month after month..
From the fall of 1988
into the winter of 1989..

I played it…..

until it became my heartbeat..

And finally…

after a year in the wilderness…

I emerged from my room..

ready to face my giants…

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of the 90’s…

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First song i ever learned on guitar 👇

I had many songs embedded in this story.. but it was causing it to load super slow.. so I deleted most of them…

My Friend Joey’
Me`

Psalm 34:18 (NKJV)

“The Lord is near to the brokenhearted..
and saves those who are crushed in spirit…”

© 2025–2026 Bryan Loia Hudson (bryanforchrist). All rights reserved.

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I Told Them I Didn’t Have Cancer — And I Was Right

For most of my life.. I’ve been strong and healthy.. Then about a year and a half ago.. my health crashed hard.. This past year has been rough… sickness.. weakness.. doctors searching for answers — but lately I’ve been getting stronger day by day..

Six months ago.. things hit the worst point..

I was deathly sick and went to the ER.. They ran tests.. Two doctors walked in with that look on their faces — the look that says everything before a word is spoken..

“We think it’s cancer.”

They told me there were spots on my pancreas… liver… kidneys… and when something shows up on multiple organs.. red flags go up immediately.. doctors assume the worst.. To them.. it looked like cancer that had already spread..

But me?
I was calm..

Not because I’m fearless — but because I had a promise from above that I’d live a long life.. I knew it wasn’t my time.. And I also knew they can’t call anything “cancer” until a biopsy confirms it.. honestly.. even if it were cancer.. I’d still react calmly.. because I’m ready to go home whenever…

I was admitted to the hospital.. and while I waited for results.. everyone — doctors.. nurses.. all treated me like it was cancer.. even my patient chart said it’s cancer.. cancer.. cancer.. cancer… everywhere cancer… One nurse introduced me to another by saying….

“This is Bryan… he has pancreatic cancer.”

I looked up and said..
“No ma’am.. I don’t have cancer.. And the tests results aren’t even back yet…”

Everybody around me braced for the worst..
I held on to faith…
I wasn’t signing my name on something that didn’t belong to me…

Not today.
Not ever.

“Don’t put that evil on me.. Ricky Bobby..” I joked………..
(They tried to curse me — I wasn’t having it 😄…)

And then the results came in..

Everything was benign…
No cancer…
Doctors scratching their heads because they were almost certain…
Me smiling.. because I already knew..

God kept His word to me.
And I’m still here — living.. growing.. healing.. getting stronger every day..

If you’re facing something scary.. remember this..
Doctors have knowledge..
God has the final say……

And He’s not done with me yet.

Also… if you’re reading this….. He’s not done with you either…..

…….†→✚→↑’…….↑†↑→✖⇂’

© Bryan H. 2025 — All Rights Reserved

`’.,°~

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Hidden Gems From The B-Side–Faith Side (Week 1)

This is my first faith song post.. I’ve already changed my mind like 5 times this week on what to start off with… I decided to go easy starting out..

Shane & Shane are just incredible.. there music is among my favorites.. they are special.. they’ve been around for like 25 years.. the songs and the lyrics are top shelf.. and not so mainstream…

This first video is a beautiful short instrumental interlude.. followed by the featured song “Holiday” from the album “Pages” 2007… this album is on my all-time best list.. every song on it is awesome…

Also.. a side note.. the way these two guys harmonize together… is magical.. Shane Barnard & Shane Everett are their names.. Barnard is the front man and plays guitar and sings lead.. and Everett.. aka E.. he sings back up.. and he is maybe my favorite singer.. you should hear him hit the highs.. it’s just special..

Reflection

A pause.
A song.
A feeling.

You decide the rest.

Psalm 98:1 💯💥🎶☝️
“Sing to the Lord a new song,
for He has done marvelous things.”

……↓↓↯•†•↯↑↑’…..◎♭◎’ 4theslaveisourbrother

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A Hidden Track Of Me…

My first impression

I want my first impression to feel like a hidden track —
a quiet glow in a deep place.. carrying a melody of grace beneath the scars…

I don’t have all the answers… but I know Who does…..`-¡-`°<³
I don’t know what the future holds… but I know Who holds the future…..
I’m nothing special… but I’m special to Him…..

I used to live for myself..
Now I try to put others first — it’s my deep place… the place I like to dwell..
Today.. I carry a love for people I never dreamed possible…..`~  ¡- `<³°
To me.. there’s no such thing as a stranger……

…….<3~|🎶†🎶|~’..`¡-°…….<3~|^†^|~’:`~°•.`

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JESUS — ARMY OF YAH 🔥  #JesusIsKing #wemarchon #shorts #christianshorts…

I just made this you tube short in the link.. check it out… and click on thumbnail to listen to full song… TRIBESONG-MIYAH-ARMY OF YAH 🎶

https://youtube.com/shorts/XtfOsu7kd8A?si=wm16jb2IueJABHbK

I am not afraid of ten thousand enemies who surround me on every side.. Psalm 3:6

Army of Yah
short poem for the march

Feet to the fire—
 we don’t break,
  we burn brighter.

Shadows rise—
 we rise higher.

Sword of the Word—
 heart like a drum—
  hell steps back
   when the saints come.

We were dust—
 now thunder.

By His breath,
 by His blood,
 we march on.

Check out my YouTube channel “bryanforchrist” and Subscribe… only if you like… I’m all about people… that’s all I care about…

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Small Poem… Steel-Toed Love… inspired by Thousand Foot Krutch album…

The End Is Where We Begin…

Steel-Toed Love

Kicked in my face.

Kicked into place.

Kicked by Grace.

.......—/—'

“Sacred minimalist?? Me?
You think I’m easy?
No.. no…
I require dinner.. a movie..
and maybe… maybe…
a kiss….”…a Judas kiss even…”

…….<~:†:~>¦¤¤¤¦~↘🐍’

…….~=/\|X|/\=~’…….~⛔🛑|💢|🛑⛔~’

by loia 🏳

Thousand Foot Krutch – The End Is Where We Begin – Full Album 🎶 (this album is incredible) https://youtu.be/s6Ue0QG8dxw?si=cNnkw4YCa-1F5CqB

© Bryan H. 2025 — All Rights Reserved

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What book am I reading right now? Well… this one found me more than I found it…

What book are you reading right now?

“The Devils Mistake” by Eira Wulfnothsson and “Celebrate Every Life… Even Mine” by Nan Panman

Not long ago.. I was watching a documentary.. and there was a woman on there who said some things that hit me deep.. I don’t know why.. but her words stuck in my mind.. So I googled her.. Ended up on her website.. Read about her life.. And then I realized why she stood out to me..

She’s an ex-Luciferian occultist who became a Christian…..

That alone fascinated me — but when I found her testimony on YouTube… man.. The depth she was in.. the darkness she lived in.. the way God rescued her… it shook me.. Because I could relate more than I wish I could.. I’ve had my own brushes with that same evil.. I once tried to sell my soul.. I know the pull of that darkness.. I know the cost..

So I reached out…
We ended up emailing..
One thing led to another.. and she invited me into her YouTube community and her podcast.. Pitbulls of the Lord…

She’s smart.. sharp.. grounded.. And because of her past.. she understands the kind of spiritual warfare I’ve been dealing with in a way most people can’t.. She’s been there.. She survived what I almost didn’t…

She’s Roman Catholic, and I’m not — but honestly? I don’t care.. Truth is truth….

Her book is called “The Devil’s Mistake…”
And let me tell you… I couldn’t put it down.. I read the whole thing in a day and a half.. It was powerful.. profound.. it’s on my list of best reads…

Her name is Eira Wulfnothsson..
If any of this sparks something in you — look her up.. You might be surprised by what you find…

Also.. I recently read a friend’s book.. it’s also a Christian testimony story of God’s power and love throughout the life of this woman.. her story is similar to mine and Eira’s…. it’s also tremendously powerful… so check her book out… her name is Nan Panman.. and the book is called “Celebrate Every Life… Even Mine”

I recommend them both…

Both of these books are available on Amazon.. and maybe other places also.. I downloaded both from Kindle…

Below are links for both books…

Yall l have a great day…

I love yall…

https://www.amazon.com/s?k=the+devil%27s+mistake+by+eira+Wulfnothsson&i=stripbooks&crid=2XQ9T2SNQC5W4&sprefix=the+devil%27s+mistake+by+eira+Wulfnothsson+%2Cbooks%2C123&ref=nb_sb_noss

…….<3~⚡†⚡~<3’…….📖↯⛓†☀️’…….↘🌑↗†↗🌕’……./\~^→O→~†↑’…………………`¡-v’³