life is like an effin’ box of chocolates… 📦 🍫

last night while sleeping…

Last night…
in my dream…
I was Forrest Gump—

only for a little bit
and not nearly as smart as him 😁

But seriously…

I was sitting on a bench—
in a town square—
just like the movie

As I do in all my dreams…
I scanned everything first—
taking it in—
inspecting the air
the place
the feeling—
before diving in

Sitting beside me on the bench—
was a man I recognized

Gary

My neighbor from when I was about fourteen—
he lived directly next door
he used to play football with me and my friends
he took me fishing often—
he loved to fish—
and he didn’t like going alone

He didn’t really have friends either

He and his wife Nancy—
were from upstate New York
they’d moved to the Atlanta area for work—
and I assume—
to eat grits 🙃

Gary was older than me—
about twenty five
I was fourteen…
and still missing the toilet when I pissed

I looked up to him—
like a big brother

The last time I saw him—
was a few months after my friend’s funeral
not long after that—
he and Nancy moved away—
I think back to New York—
if I remember right

There we were—
side by side—
on that bench

I spoke to him…

He turned toward me—
but he didn’t know who I was

So I told him—
reminded him of our past—
the fishing
the football
the neighborhood

Then he remembered…

His eyes lit up…

And then I told him—
that God loved him

His face changed…

He became sad—
started crying

He told me—
his family was very worried about him—
very concerned

And that was it…

I woke up…

End of dream…

I went downstairs—
made coffee—
then breakfast—
in that order

I’ve thought about him all morning…
I prayed for him…

For some reason—
I have the feeling that today—
this very moment—
he’s in a storm

Unless…

maybe it isn’t about him at all…

Maybe it’s about me…

© Bryan H. 2025 — All Rights Reserved


…….<3~~~<3→†→||→†→<3~~~→†”’ `’.~°.♡♤◇♧\|( -;-_

Memories… like fingerprints… are slowly raising…

She Hasn’t Eaten Today 🐅

my dream from a month ago…

Press play if you want the atmosphere…

I was standing in a deep place…
thick woods…
felt like India…

I bet you know who rules the jungles there…
yep… you guessed it…

A huge-ass deadly orange striped beast of a feline…

In this dream—
She is the golden sovereign of the jungle
robed in fire and moonlight
her stripes forged from sunsets
her perfume on the wind…

An unintentional Maneater…
the ultimate predator…
a silken huntress…
an ambered shadowed She-Cat…
the King herself…

With heart in hand
comes the tigress…
she hasn’t eaten today…

As I moved through this place…
I felt her…
deep in me…
unlike anything before…

She’s watching…
waiting for the right time…
ready to leap…

She gets hungry too…

Life here is lonely…
but not for her…
she paints the light
names it hope…

Lions have their pride…
the tigress needs none…
her strength is solitude…

She still gets hungry…

So I stood there…
out in the open…
easily seen by her…

She kept coming for me…

Then I saw her…

O`my…`’.~°’.  -¡-_
there she is…

She wasted no time…

She bolted at me…
full sprint…

My heart racing…
palms wet…
fearful like the deer…

I can still climb…

I spotted a tree…
I climbed…
just in time…

I looked down at her…
to my surprise…
she climbed too…

there goes my heart again…
beating like a hummingbird…

In that moment…
I couldn’t tell
if I feared her claws…
or the beauty of her ascent…

I know I’m in trouble 😁…
it’s over for me…

…and it’s just begun…

© Bryan H. 2025 — All Rights Reserved

`’.~°’.

While writing this piece… I listened to the album “Throwing Copper” from 1994.. by`’Live`… I always listen to good music when writing anything…

The Blue Bitch 🧊

my dream from last night…

I found myself in a strange place…

I was waist deep in an icy body of water — dark… still… and filled with large chunks of white and blue ice
I could feel the cold cutting into me
I was freezing
Shivering
Every movement felt slow and heavy

At the edge of the water stood a large square black house
No windows
Just one open door — glowing with light
It felt like the only way out of this place

So I waded through the water in the night searching for something…
I didn’t know what

Then I heard crying

Someone calling out in distress

I saw a disturbance in the water ahead of me…
It was a girl…
She looked like she was drowning…
I moved toward her without thinking — instinct kicked in…

When I reached her.. I noticed something strange

She was blue

Her skin… her whole body… an unnatural blue

I tried to help her toward the shore toward the light — but suddenly she changed
She latched onto me
Hard…
she began trying to pull me out into deeper water…

She was trying to drown me

Her eyes were excited — almost joyful — as I struggled to stay afloat
She was enjoying it
Taking pleasure in my suffering
The fight for survival became violent and desperate
She wouldn’t relent

Neither would I

I fought and fought and fought

I was determined… not to let her win…

I pushed through the icy water toward the lit door of the black house as she tried again and again to drag me under
Through the open doorway.. I could see people inside — just living their lives
Normal
Unaware
Going about their day

I tried to yell to them

But I couldn’t scream loud enough

I kept trying… but my words had no weight
No volume
Nothing carried

I was so close to the door now — so close — and that blue bitch almost had me
She was seconds from pulling me under the surface of the water

I knew I had one chance left

I reached deep inside myself
I had to make it count

And I yelled one last time —

“YALL HELP ME”

I woke myself up… shouting those words out loud

Physically yelling

And suddenly… it was over

I was awake

Safe

What a relief

It was just a dream




very profound…
very real…
I laid awake in bed…
thinking `’.-°

…….≈≈≈↓~❄→|█|→□▣→†→~↓≈≈≈→<o>→|█|→( )→!→/\/\/\→↑→”YALL HELP ME”→’→~__→…..t `’.-° -;- ~`’,

© Bryan H. 2025 — All Rights Reserved

While writing… listened to the album… Vs. by Pearl Jam… from 1993

Hidden Gems From The B-Side.. Life Side (Week 6)

Our Lady Peace 🎶 Somewhere Out There 🎶 Clumsy…

Hey yall… I got two more OLP songs for you…

Somewhere Out There… 2o02.. from the album Gravity…

Clumsy… 1997… from the album Clumsy…

Just some cool info… they took their name from the novel The End of Alice by A.M. Homes…
It’s meant to feel poetic and symbolic rather than religious — a phrase that sounds gentle but carries weight..

Also.. they have many platinum albums.. and Frontman Raine Maida is known for.. writing lyrics inspired by psychology.. philosophy.. and literature.. Leaving meanings intentionally open — many songs feel emotional first.. literal second
That’s why tracks like Clumsy still hit even if you can’t fully explain them… hope you enjoy…

…….♪♪→◎◎→† -;‐___`

The Green-Eyed Lion of Judah…

the dream that changed it all 🦁

Summer of 1997…

In this season of my life…
I was far away from the God I walked with as a boy and teenager…
but He wasn’t far from me…
He was still right where I had left Him…

I was asleep one night…
I had a dream…
in the middle of addiction…
in the middle of my sin…
this was it…



I found myself on a path…
alone…

I looked around…
in awe…
the road was marble…
gold…
silver…
lined with precious jewels…
vibrant…
alive with color…

I thought…
where am I
where is everyone

All at once…
I felt breath upon my neck…

slowly…
I turned around…
before me…
was the most brilliant…
awesome…
magnificent thing…
I have ever laid eyes on…

It was a Lion…

close as could be…

I was face to face with Him…

His eyes were so green…
so piercing…
He saw right through me…

Suddenly…
I became afraid…
what was He about to do
what was about to happen

Beneath the fear…
reverence…

I knew…
He was King of all…

Then…
He began to move…

He lowered His head…
nudged me…
to start walking…

As I moved along the path…
He followed behind me…

Up ahead…

a small white horse…

The Lion went out…
met the horse…
devoured it…
swallowed it whole…

Then He returned behind me once again…
pushing me…
down the path…

At the end…
a wide marble staircase…

He came around from behind me…
moved up the stairs…
sat on the throne…

At His side…
two other Lions…

I fell on my face…

I worshipped Him…

I knew…

He was God…



I immediately woke up…

I jumped out of bed…
started writing down the dream…
because I didn’t want to forget it…

But it didn’t matter…

I never have forgotten…

It is as clear to me today…
as when it first happened…

I’m able still…
to close my eyes…
relive it…
just as vivid…
anytime I want…

For years…
I felt the dream was God telling me…
that He was with me…
calling me…
to straighten up…
follow Him…

Then… June of 2o08…

After the second attempt on my life…
God rescued me…
miraculously…
just in time…
brought me safely out of it… to Florida…
to a men’s discipleship and drug rehab ministry…

I had been there for several months…
it was now fall…

One afternoon…
outside… raking leaves…
singing…
praising…
alone…

Suddenly…
I was reminded of my dream…

I looked out across the property…

In the front of the building…
a small pond…
and in the center…
a fountain…
of a Lion…

Then I noticed something else…

The driveway…
L shaped…
like the path in my dream…

At the end of the driveway…
where the throne would be…
two Lion statues…
one on each side…

I was blown away…

Everything made sense now…

I was without words…

And I still am today…
when I think about it all…



I later became the resident director of that ministry…
spent four years there…

I watched God work strong and mighty…
in the lives of hundreds of broken men…
that came through our doors…
transforming them…
they were never the same…

And in my life…
there is absolutely…
no doubt…
what has happened…
taken place…

who is responsible…
who gets the credit…
the glory…
the honor…
the praise… 🙌



and…`.°~ ¡-~-¡`°
the small white horse…
my enemies…
my past…

© Bryan H. 2025 — All Rights Reserved

Psalm 143: 9-12…

Deliver me… O LORD… from mine enemies…
I flee unto thee for refuge… to hide me…
Teach me to do thy will… for thou art my God…
thy spirit is good… lead me into the land of uprightness… onto level ground… because of mine enemies…
Quicken me… O LORD… for Jesus Christ name’s sake…
for thy righteousness’ sake… bring my soul out of trouble…
And of thy loving kindness… and mercy… cut off mine enemies…
and destroy all them that afflict my soul..
for I am thy servant… thy friend… thy child…

…..-¡-
…..t

The Seven Brothers…

🦁🦁🦁🦁🦁🦁🦁

(October 4, 2o25 — My Dream)

This is a dream I had on October 4th of this year…

I was standing at a vast grasslands…
with others around me…

one man said…
“who will go…?”

No one moved…

They were afraid to go across…
because there were fierce Lions just beyond…

I was filled with courage…
And I said…

“I will go…”

As I started walking…
I got to a certain point…

out came the Lions…

I was sore afraid…

They were ferocious…
they had me in their sights…

Every instinct in me wanted to run…
but I knew that was the worst thing I could do…

something changed in me…

Instead of turning away…
I became bold…

I went out to meet them…

They were moving toward me…
I was moving toward them…

Then came the moment…

We met…
face to face…

instead of killing me…

They opened a path…

as I walked between them…
they showed me great respect…

They did not attack me…
they honored me…

as I passed by them…
they fell in close behind me…

All seven of them…

They had my back…

They walked with me across the land…
to the other side…

They became my protection…

When I reached the other side…
all seven of them stopped…

They looked at me…

without saying a word…
they spoke to me with their eyes…

they bowed down before me…

With great strength…
and great respect…

This is the second Lion dream I’ve ever had…

When the Lions show up…

things get crazy…

Intense…


>THE INTERPRETATION…

The following day…
I received this interpretation in my spirit…

The Lions were coming for me…
and their intent was to have me…

But when they saw my fear turn into boldness…
and that I was coming to face them instead of running…

I became like them…

They no longer saw me as food…

I became one of their own…

That’s why they walked at my back…
protecting me…

Because Lions protect their own…

That’s why they showed me such honor…

Because I conquered my fear…

And became just like one of them…

Lions are absolutely fearless…

So they saw me as family…
as a brother…

a bond between brother Lions…
is strong… unbreakable…

How you act up close with wild Lions…
is the ultimate test of fear…

am I going to become like them…?
Or be food for them…?

I’m not saying that I’m a fearless Lion…
because I’m not…

This was just a dream…

But it was super powerful…
meaningful…

It woke me in the night… and I laid there… thinking about it…

I believe it happened for a reason…

..😇.†⚔️⚔️..😇..|>MY|<|SIDE|..~’🦁🦁🦁🦁🦁🦁🦁😎`.°~ ¹⁴³ -¡-…

…..t’

© Bryan H. 2025 — All Rights Reserved

Hidden Gems From The B-Side – Faith Side (Week 5)

Kutless 🎶 Take Me In 🎶 It’s Like Me…

Hey yall… happy Sunday to you…

I’ve got two more Kutless songs for you…

“Take Me In” — released in 2004 on the album Sea of Faces
and
“It’s Like Me” — released in 2006 on the album Strong Tower

“It’s Like Me” is special to me… it’s become one of my favorites… the more I hear it… the more it sits with me… and it’s become like a theme song for me… because… “it’s so like me… to never see…”

I hope you guys enjoy them… and have a blessed day…

..¹4³..🎶…”it’s so like me”→.to..→”never see”→..🎶.→”when it came”→.🎶..→”when it went”→🎶…→”now it’s gone away”…🎶’

🎶”Take the coal… touch my lips… here I am…”

Isaiah 9:6 (NIV)🌿🕊✝️
> “For to us a child is born…
to us a son is given…
and the government will be on His shoulders…
And He will be called…
Wonderful Counselor… Mighty God…
Everlasting Father… Prince of Peace…”